Finally decided to make one of these just because I'm bored. x3





( the GazettE )

( alice nine. )

( D'espairsRay )

( Crossovers )

Nhur Christmas break has begun! :D AND IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I found a copy of Space Station Silicon Valley (N64 game) for sale on Ebay and I want to buy it. But I gotta wait till my mum gets home. x3 Nhur I want that game! But To play it I would need a working N64 and since mine is currently out of commission... Nhur I hope they got me a new one for Christmas. I asked for one dammit! x3

Anyway I think I'm going over to Brady's for a bit later. Then I want to see if I can go Christmas shopping. But with the snow I'm not sure Mum will take me. -.-

~:Ramblings Session #135 END.

So... After next week school is off for Christmas Break! Yesh! :D Yesterday was fun. I went over to Brady's mum's for a bit after school. We watched the 40 Year Old Virgin. XD Now today (if all goes well) Kelli and I are going to a gym. Then later we're gonna get Brady and go to Chinese and movies. :D
Then next weekend I think I'm going over to make fudge. :3 It should be fun.
-A- I gotta go shopping for Christmas stuffs.

~:Ramblings Session #134 END.

For best... I'd have to say

1. Crank by Ellen Hopkins. Just the way she writes is amazing. It's realistic and nearly impossible for me to put down. I just wanted to know what happened next in Kristina's down spiral.
2. Tantalize by Cynthia Leitich Smith. I love vampires and werewolves. To me it's face paced and I finished it rather quickly.
3. Cujo by Stephen King. Stephen King is one of my all time favorite authors. His characters are fascinating. He doesn't just tell the situation from one character.

For the worst...

1. Twilight. As well as the others in the series. Though it has vampires, it makes it like they all look the same. It never stops rambling about how good looking Edward is. Bella is a Mary Sue and needs a personality.
2. Monster Island. Along with the others. I'll admit I liked it before the Scottish zombie guy got into it. (Was he Scottish??) It just went downhill from there. I was just wanting a good zombie apocalypse novel with a few of the remaining humans trying to survive. I guess looking at it, that's what I got.

For a third, I can't really name any unless I name the others in the series I don't like. x3

Ah so I've been up mostly all night. Whitney's youth group had a lock in so Brady and I went to that. Twas much fun. Except for the part of me holding off pissing for several hours. x3 That was a bit of a nuisance. Ah but I cuddled up next to Brady and fell asleep for a few minutes. Then they said the guys and girls had to separate for a bit to sleep. So I just rolled over and went back to sleep. x3 That was about 3 30 I think. Then we woke up around 8 ish. Hm... not much really to say. Too bored/tired to form real sentences in my head. x3 Ugh I need to start writing again. -A-

~:Ramblings Session #133 END.

Wow! It's been a while hasn't it? x3 Nhur I'm sorry. x3 Ugh... school's been a pain. :/ Me no likie all the work we have to do. >_< But the teachers are awesome this year so the days go by really fast. :3 And I'm reeeeally happy because the counselor let me switch out of chorus into psychology! Why am I so happy about it? Because they were going to get rid of psychology next year and you have to be a junior or senior to take it. But they let some sophomores in this year so I didn't see why I couldn't get in. :3 So I went down and talked to her and I got in. :3 Mr. Johnson's awesome! I have him for world history now and I love it!

Hm... what else to say... My dad knows about Brady. I have no idea if I've mentioned that before lol. But yeah. SO now he goes over there every weekend with me. x3 At least dad likes him and didn't rip his throat out for being 18. :3

Um... we went bowling for my birthday. :3 That was fun. I'm working on cleaning my room so Brady and I can come in the house instead of hanging out in the cold garage. x3 Or we'll just hang at his mum's until it's finished. x3

I'm getting back into JRock! I mean I never really got out of it but I just haven't been as interested in it. Maybe I'll get back into fanfiction. But I haven't written anything for fun in like... months. >_< Meh we'll see.

~:Ramblings Session #132 END.

I reeeeeeeeeeeeeally wanna see D'espairsRay! I would definitely go to Japan or some other state near here to see them! T_T

So... I was sick for a a week. x3 Like my temperature was at 102.9 (highest it got) and just sort of fluctuated from there. It suuuuuuucked.

Brady's still gorgeous. :3 Haha.

Tomorrow I go back to school. Gopher truffle! >< I dun wanna go to school.

Yesterday I got my hair done. It's all black with blue and purple streaks. (They're sorta hard to see if I'm not in the light though.)

Um... Yeah I don't know. I feel a little crappy right now.

OMG I JUST FOUND PEZ CANDY! xD My bad mood is GONE!

~:Ramblings Session #131 END.

This is to show all the icons I've made up till now. And I'm really bored and have nothing better to do. x3

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So... Last week was fun. Thursday we went to Kings Island (Kelli got to go). That was awesome. 'Cept for the fact that we (Kelli and I) rode a water ride and got soaked even though it was a little on the cool side that day (and our pants started rubbing so our thighs hurt practically all day x3). After KI closed, we dropped Kelli off with her mum and went home.
I hung out with Brady the next day (yay). Then we went to the fair in Shelbyville. ^_^ That was really fun. Yeah, Mum actually thinks of things for me and him to do now (like the fair and fish fry). Brady and I were gonna go watch fireworks Saturday but it rained all day and everything was canceled. x3 So we just hung out all day. Then my stepdad drove us to town for some reason and then took Brady home.
Hung out with Brady again on Sunday. x3 (Sorta sad how at least a fourth of my days are taken up by him.) Hannah texted me wanting to go to a movie. She never responded back after I said sure, so Brady and I went to see Ice Age. :D That was fun too. ^^
Now he's sick though. x3 I think he's got the flu and passed it on to me. My throat hurts and my head does too a little. So yay. And his mum won't let him come over tomorrow (which is good anyway because he needs to rest and I'm at my mamaw's house).

~:Ramblings Session #130 END.

So... I went to a lock in Friday night. Main point is... I got to hang with Brady for 14 hours. (Actually 13 because they made us go to separate rooms for an hour ><) But yeah. I'm really happy at the moment. I figured how to get ringtones I made onto my phone. ^^ So... yeah. x3

~:Ramblings Session #129 END.

So the Fairland Fishfry (seriously the biggest event of the year here in Fairland) was this Friday and Saturday. And guess who got to go and hang out with Brady. :3 lol That's right, I did. x3 Sorry... I'm sorta bored atm.
Anyway, it was fun. Mum dropped me off and we mostly walked around the place doing nothing. :3 Then his family showed up with his little sister and she wanted to ride. (It's really weird for me to call her his little sister since she's my age x3) So we rode the spinning strawberries. :3 Not a good idea. x3 B had six Monsters before riding so when we got off, he pushed some lady outta the way so he could try and make it to the trash can. x3 So after that, Hannah and Chelsea show up and I sorta ditch Brady while he's talking with his family. >< Blah, I felt bad. But we met up again when he was finished.
Yeah... he really doesn't like Hannah. And said Chelsea is a slut (which is true... even Hannah said so! x3). We mostly just walked around until it closed.
Saturday was just as great. We walked around again. Saw Whitney there. I rode a ride with her. She tagged along for a bit. Then we saw Mikayla. She went off with her. C was there. Wanted to hit him with a baseball bat. x3 He slapped B twice for jumping on his back (guys at the yc do that to each other so wtf dude?) and he said that if he did it again, he'd punch him. One, Dude, shut up. I could kick your ass. Anybody can. Two, he was messing around.
Anyway, other than that, it was good. ^^ We got to watch the fireworks together too. ^^ Then Mum showed up with the brats. She bought him a funnel cake (dammit Mum we were sharing x3). So yeah, she actually likes him now. So we're all good.

~:Ramblings Session #128 END.

C... Remember that message?
I told him it was none of his business if I kissed Brady last or not. He replied with 'psh ya whatever >:( screw u too'
So here I am reading that and I'm like '... so I'm hated now? Okay...' Actually I thought it was pretty funny. But I was worried I wouldn't get to go to the youth center anymore. x3
I replied with 'why are you getting so mad? We're not going out anymore. I'm allowed to do what I want as are you.'
He replied with this:

im just poed of how this all turned out, of how whenever i see u with bradey or any guy i get jealous yes jealous!!! im just worried for u and idk whatever nvm just go about your life and never worry about me or any thing we had, ill try as well, but it wont be tht easy, im not sure y but i know it wont be easy. ill i ask is tht u remember me, and tht !!!I!!! was ur first. im sry if i hurt u in anyway by dating u, i regret it because of tht. jst whatever.....

So... I send him back one that says something like 'It's normal to be jealous and it takes time to get over it. Don't be worried for me. Whatever happens, happens. If those things are bad, then hopefully I'll learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. Don't be sorry, you didn't hurt me in any way.'

And he read that and hasn't replied. Which is good because I think this is the stupidest thing ever. ><
He was trying to be social with me because he thought I might still like him. And when I didn't, he turns into a giant girl. WTF dude? God... I wonder if he realizes how wussy he sounds? x3 lol

And I am going to the youth center still. Kelli said it would be stupid if I stopped going just because of C because it's open for everyone. So she's going with me Thursday and hopefully the lock down. I'm only going to the lock down if B is though. x3 A whole night together... No I don't want to have sex with him! x3 Not ready for that. Just saying it'd be nice to be around him. :3 Plus it's supervised. I'll only sneak little nips and kisses. x3

Yay! I get Chinese tomorrow! (If I don't die while driving first)

~:Ramblings Session #127 END.

*whimpers*
He means a lot to me... but of course I would go with my friends.
I've known them waaaaaaay longer and trust them more than I care to admit.
I trust him too, but... nah. Definitely friends.

So... my mum caught us on Tuesday. x3 But she said I could still walk around with him. :D So I did. And now I don't have to take a dog with me every time I want to see him. x3 All she asked was for him to continue his education and cut his hair. x3

So, he walked like half an hour from his house to come see me almost everyday this week. Is that sweet or what? x3 Oh, had my first french kiss too. :3 Yeah, there's this boarded up house across the street from the house behind my house and there's a tree there. So it gives off good shade. Well I guess that's sort of our spot now. We just sit there in the shade and talk, kiss, hug, that sort of thing. :3 It's nice. Oh, first makeout session too. x3 lol Found out my neck is really sensitive. x3

Had my second Drivers Ed thing on Friday. Country roads. Yeah, I hate driving. >< Bleh... next drive is Monday and it's 'city' roads. >< I'm gonna kill myself.

Kelli went me to the youth center on Thursday. She told my mum Brady was nice. So she's really lightened up on him I think. Um... Hannah was supposed to go on Friday but she had this family dinner thing to go to. Too bad... we fought with shaving cream and water. :D That was fun! I guess C and I are (or were... explain that a little further down) on good terms. Cuz he actually socialized with me and dumped a bucket of water on me. x3 (In a friendly way.) That was bad though cuz Mum finally got me a phone with unlimited texting. x3 Thankfully it wasn't damaged. Since Friday, B and I have sent a little over 200 messages to each other. 0.o And I have a pic of him now. :3

Now to explain about C... I posted a survey on Myspace and one of the questions was something like 'would you kiss the last person you kissed again?' And so I answered hell yes since B was the last one I kissed. C replied to it asking if he was still the last one I had kissed and he apologized for avoiding me. I told him that he wasn't and that it was fine. He responds with 'let me guess Brady >:{'. And his status is 'ticked.' To which I reply 'I really don't think it's any of your business. :3'
And he hasn't read that message yet... prolly will today though. >< Bleh... It's really none of his business who I kiss. x3

Went to Borders yesterday with my dad and Hannah. That was fun. Now Hannah and the guy she likes are going out. :3 lol and my dad and I helped make that happen. :D Yeah, talked to my mum when I got home. She really is a lot better with B. She said now all she asks for is for him to continue his education and get a job. She doesn't care about his hair anymore. So it's awesome. :3

Oh, I made a new layout. x3 It's HIZUMI of D'espairsRay. :D And the lyrics are from 3 Libras by A Perfect Circle (awesome song, check it out).

I might get to see B today. Apparently he misses me a lot since he didn't get to see me yesterday. >< *sighs* I need to tell Dad about him... I wonder what he'd say though. 0.o He doesn't want any guy near me... let alone an 18 year old. x3

~:Ramblings Session #125 END.

Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[ ] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other-$75

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[ ] 6' to 6'7" - $150
[ ] 5'5" to 5'11" - $125
[x] 5'4" to 5'10" - $85
[ ]Below 5'4" - $0

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[ ] Second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] Third born - $550
[ ] Fourth born - $300
[ ] Fifth born - $400
[ ] Sixth born -$215
[x] First born - $1000000

Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] Only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[x] No - $600

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $400
[ ] Need or have glasses/ contacts but don't wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[x] Glasses $50
[x] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[ ] 7 to 10 - $500
[x] Under 7- $450

Favorite Colors (four):
[] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[x] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[ ] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[x] Other - $500 silver


Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes - $0
[x] Nope - add $1000
[ ] Some- $750

I'm worth:: $1003885

So... he asked me out on Tuesday. :3 And I said yeah. So now we're going out. And I thought it was all good. Till Friday rolled along. And I went to the youth center and Brady was there. Brady's pretty cool. And I must say that we're somewhat alike. We like anime/manga, and he actually knows some Jrock bands! Dude! I've been dying to have someone else around here like Dir en grey and the GazettE! That just gave him like 86597673725732157 awesome points. :D He doesn't really like kids either. So it's like... awesome. Only weird thing is that besides seeing him this past Friday, I've only seen him one other time. And this past time was the only time I've ever really talked with him. He said he's never really been that open with anyone before. So now... I have no idea what to do. It's like... Chris and I are really different. He's... really into the whole Christian thing. And I'm... just sorta going along with the flow with it comes to religion. With him basically everything happens because God made it that way. And, to be honest, that bugs the fuck outta me. Why can't things just happen because they're mean to happen or just because of some freak coincidence? Why because a great higher power made it that way? Blah, now I'm sounding bad. >_< I mean... I wanna believe in God but why does EVERY SINGLE LITTLE FRAKING THING have to be of His doing?

Ugh... not to mention C was wearing a tank top type thingy on Friday and you could see his armpit hair. xD lmao That turned me off a bit. Bleh... Why can't guys shave under their arms?? xD lmao. So... when it was time to go I left. Then I woke up the next morning to find a new friend request on myspace. And low and behold, who shall it be? Brady. So now we've been talking on there. And now he gave me his cell number so I can text him. And I told him I'd give him a hug on Thursday. Bleh, I have no idea where (if anywhere) this is going. >_<

In other news, school ends on Friday. :3 so w00t!

~:Ramblings Session #121 END.

Hm... I haven't posted in a while, have I. Well... not much is going on. >_<
My mamaw fell and broke a vertebra so now she's out of surgery and in an assisted living type place til she gets better. Other than that... it's just... blah.

Good news is that after this week there's only 4 more days of school. ^^ Stupid snow makeup days... meh, at least they took two days off. We'd be in til June 2. 0.o

Ohhhhh, I went to the Fall Out Boy concert on Friday~! Twas AWEEEEESOME~~~~! Kelli went too. ^^ Yeah, we were sorta off eating while Hey Monday was playing. ^^;; Then... All Time Low played. That was a little weird cuz they started talking about penis in the popcorn at the movies. xD And my mum was standing behind. xD Fun times. Then... Who played after them? Metro Station? Then Cobra Starship~! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Then of course Fall Out Boy played! Gah! I looooooooove Patrick~! ♥♥♥ w00t! They're coming back in August too! So I'm going to that! ^^

~:Ramblings Session #120 END.

"If you want to play too, just leave a comment on this post and I'll give you a band. Don't worry, I'll make it one you know and love. You put your ten favorite songs by that band on your LJ and challenge others to do the same."

Yumikouri gave me Ayabie. :D

1. Mefish no uta, koigarano suihou
2. Romancer
3. Shine
4. Shikasahoko
5. Nankyoku
6. Hentai Saishuu page
7. Gothic party speed session
8. Heien no ato, ame
9. Kagen sakura
10. Hinata

Stolen from Yumikouri

1. Your fav fandom?
JRock

2. Your fav pairing(s)? Why?
Reita/Ruki - Dude... How can you NOT like this pairing?
Aoi/Kai - Personally my fav... just because they're cute together
Saga/Shou - Love both of them... so why not put them together. :3
Karyu/HIZUMI - HIZUMI's a sexy beast and Karyu's awesome. :3
TSUKASA/ZERO - I honestly ahve no idea... I think it's because I paired Karyu and HIZUMI up and they were the leftovers. lol xD
Aoi/Ruki - Cuteness~!
Tora/Nao - Again, leftovers (plus Pon isn't exactly my favorite... >.>)
Uruha/Ruki - They're both blondes and total nutballs. x3
Aoi/Reita - idk... Reita needs to get pounded by someone (and I hate Ruki/Reita x3)
Miyavi/Kai - Again, cuteness~!

3. Pairing(s) you hate the most? Why?
Ruki/Reita - ... COME ON!
Basically anything with Ruki being on top - ... It's Ruki.
Shou/Pon - ...I can read it... but I just don't like Pon that much x3
Pon/Shou - Look up

4. First fic ever?
Eh... I think it was Inuyasha x3

5. Genre(s) suit you the most?
Fluff

6. Numbers of your fics when you do this meme?
Eh... like 15

7. Your fav author(s)? Why?
I don't think I have any actual favorites...

8. Ever thought your own fics are good?
some of them I think are awesome x3

9. Ever received critics for your fics? Did that affect you?
eh... not that I recall... but idk x3

10. Are you famous amongst the other authors?
haha no x3

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Whoever.